a rambling from the mom...

Tonight we went to church. I know...some of you that know us may be taken aback by that! just kidding. but seriously we did go. and I didn't get on here to tell all of you that we went. I say it because I experienced something tonight.

Worship was great. Sometimes I like to just stop singing myself and just......listen. You can hear lots of things that way. How much better everyone else around me sounds when I'm not singing or how one person sometimes gets really loud on the microphone and can over power the others. But sometimes if you listen really close...you can hear God in the place. Better yet. You can feel Him. and man I did tonight.

I was standing there (hoping our number wouldn't get put up on the screen...more on that later) sitting next to my husband and some friends. and all of a sudden, i just felt this overwhelming feeling of blessings. If that's how you describe it. These people we were sitting next too are more than friends to us now. They are like family. A big family that we will be able to rejoice with forever. Friends who really care about us...and us about them. I mean REALLY care. not just that "hey..how ya doing. oh good" care. The "share life with us" care. I love that. and I thank God for them. and all the other people we "do life" with too. Thank you God for reminding me of the blessings you have already given us.

He knew I had a rough day. But I am relying on Him. Because, well, His plan is going to be better than my plan. and quite honestly, I can't believe I thought I had that much control over something. Because I don't. He does. and He will. and I am okay with that. Disapointed for now. But okay with that. (you will all know what I mean someday...it's not bad I promise).

For now I am thankful for all the other many blessings he has given me in my life. My husband. My wonderful kid. My friends. My family. I just needed a gentle reminder of that tonight.

On to my wonderful kid. It's pretty great when your kid is asked by an adult while we are checking in "you are going to stay the whole time in nursery tonight right buddy??"(did you sense the sarcasm in my voice????) all while he already has tears streaming down his face. I was just thinking "yeah right." and "fabulous, my kid is now known as the one who screams the whole time" BUT....

Brandon and I sat there tonight at church...together. Luke stayed in the nursery the whole time. That in itself is a cause for dancing in the streets. :) He screamed and cried when I dropped him off. and I'm pretty sure he never let go of his "gankie" while he was there. But. He. Stayed. I wonder if God spoke to him tonight too?

When we picked him up he yelled "mommy mommy mommy mommy" over and over while tears were streaming down his face. Is it sick that I loved the fact he missed me sooooo much?!? I mean, I missed him too of course, but it was only an hour...and he needs to learn he can do things without us ya know? But it was great to know he wanted me. :)

well, thanks for reading my ramblings from this evening. I don't even know if they made sense. But I wanted to write out a little of what I was feeling from this evening. We sure are going to miss Michael leading worship.